Love Finding:
A lonely heart
Here I was with a lonely heart
years had been since shared
time and place with man so fair
excitement lacking, it is not fair
seeking someone with heart could care
Not choosing just anyone there
spurning many coming in suit
who, claiming honors
had but one pursuit
casting seed, alone their need
Me, looking wide, and looking close
finding none worthy of choose
and remaining lonely, much to lose
and time moves fast by
need again to find man try
Who could not just fill his need
me taking in his fertile seed
but a companion to fill broader need
encouraging, lifting, above ordinary breed
of men, their sexual needs
As months become years, settles in fear
of never finding love, or cheer
that one man, who, with steady hand
would be there, the best he can
and bring love with hope and care
To my lonely heart
that which life demands a share
a comforting of troubles
building life in happy bubble
to hold and be held quite fair
Search I must if ever be there
no moment to lose, in need of scare
his hand to hold, his dreams nurtured
hers supported and timely there, him supportive
searching, searching everywhere
I have Seen
There I was, just going about
minding my business a fresh tour out
I wasn’t looking, not trying to find
but there was a couple gave me remind
I was reminded that I was alone
marriage had failed, no new love sown
open, their display of affection
surprised I was, but caught my attention
Distracted, back to good times thoughts wander
my thoughts of old times were distant, asunder
I tried in my mind to shake it all off
my heart beat faster, beginning to scoff
As I went about in moments just after
and while my heart racing, beats faster
an image, a man-face, a smiling
seized me, a need, his image and style
He seemed so different from others I see
him not the usual kind come to me
it was as if he were looking into me
seeing my person, where I could be free
His image to capture my thoughts
ideas of how connection to be wrought
where I and he could find common ground
hoping for future where love could be found
My heart was sure that I had seen
the man of my future, love there to glean
no thoughts of others were there to be seen
on his presence all future to lean
Stray Thoughts
To an image I had seen some place
I’m drawn.
No idea why, but there it lay,
Why?
Many men had come suiting
by
None worth giving a try, lonely
I cry
Drawn, I looked and yearned
for conversation.
Reached toward, to get
his attention.
Hopeful of more, heartfelt intentions
to touch.
Wanting more, I begin
to blush.
Stray thoughts to take form, hopeful
love to be born.
There to be found, or lost
me to drown.
As my heart takes over,
mind on the ground.
From a Distance
Somewhere upon a virtual page
was a face a-smile with vintage age
that encouraged, warmth his smile brought
“Now if just a smile could move my heart,
then maybe there is more.”
and with this thought, possibility wrought.
As a word sent, and almost blocked
she, in hope, to out-wait the clock
as word came in return, blocked not
Calming words began exchange
discovering more with each words saying
to find him lonely too, deeper than you
And though he profess limited access
his words had meaning, and promise
nothing fixed and nothing sure
But the two, each wanting more
from life than what had made each sore
a friendship forming right away
Not a bond, not yet
but a possibility on which she’d bet
so encourage she did with every line
Shared words from heart and also mind
hopeful she is to within him find
a heart to spare of special kind
Distress
There he was, a fine old soul
aging yes, but with life-goals
worthy in their sharing
Commitment, he claimed
for broken marriage with blame
where love was lost and had no fame
Her heart to sink, just to think
that her new found friend
would be gone, lost gain
Yet knowing well marriage love was broke
even though this made her choke
there may be tears in her eyes, but she would try
To touch the inner soul and heart of him
already this was much more than whim
her heart affected his gentle words
None of which made her feel small, unheard
encouragement and interest in his every word
to build her up, to fly like bird
Yet still he insisted there could be nothing more
than friendly speech from shore to shore
yet too, he did not close chatting’s door
As if he too wanted more as words explore
the other’s life, yet still unsure
he held back, back, now she’s unsure
A Quiet Conversation
Well afar, we were in space
yet as if each there, true grace
to speak of common things
slow, a shared ground to bring
where each could feel at home
become familiar, we are not alone
He is off across the pond
that place for which I wish, I long
to find his finger lacing mine
as our minds and heart align
gently comes peace of mind
his the heart for which I pine
How is it that in shortest time
a pairing of souls come to find
for me, this is what I’ve sought
and though he resists, I am caught
as my mind is filled with him
I find myself far out on limb
Becoming committed to his engage
to bring him onto this very page
the page where we are close
able to give, and know
that we are the future even so
this I want to him show
And as our conversation moves
each our minds and heart are soothed
as we learn of each other bruised
our style of cloths and walking shoes
as slow but sure, every day more
we each know the other sure
Each of us, our smiles find
as speaking of life, the common line
of how our lives have in past been
and how it is we’re seeking friend
not yet speaking of what could be
though I dream of him with me
Conspicuous
“What is going on, my friend?
You seem changed
from who you have been.”
And there I was, explaining
I’d met some one
and I could not keep my heart restrained
She’d noticed that I was humming
as if it were my heart string strumming
and I, a smile upon my face
Each time his image came in place
my mind, could not keep it off my face
it seems a pleasured grace
She too smiled, happy in her heart
that I, so lonely, had found
someone who moved me profound
So conspicuous a change, which still remains
as after a time, with growing pains
love just may have been arranged
And I with a happiness could not restrain
I wouldn’t want to, never again
be without him
Wondering
There I was, listening to his words
as I spoke them aloud from the page
not know whether to trust them
“Yes, I am quite unsure, yet engaged!”
We’ve been corresponding for a while
I am learning much of his style
and finding my heart excited with his smile
my mind seems disengaged the while
As my heart takes over, me dreaming
thinking of a future with him, scheming
to find a way to capture his heart, I am leaning
I want him close for comfort gleaning
Yet here he is, holding back
wondering why I am steadily coming back
to give a little more to interest
flirting
And still he claims he’s set in ways
married strongly for all his days
and lonely in the deepest ways
as her words turn him ever away
How could he stay, love unrequited
never a day where they are excited
never a dance with swing and sway
no married life for joyful play
My heart aches for him
my slim arms would close hold him
and still he swears he can’t
and I am left wondering
Capture
Days, it has been, and then
I again see his words, a win
He’s come back to chat again
tells me I’m beautiful within my skin
Admiration from him comes
to tell me that I may have his heart won
I have a moment of rapture
hoping this a snaring capture
Eloquent Words Speaking
I had come to see his words come free
from an able and willing mind
as slowly lines come one at a time
to tell me how affected he was
and the direction of his heart’s incline
Here friendship, common thoughts align
to speak of possibilities which quickly come a-mind
these words to speak of joyfulness
as more and more for our chatting he does pine
hoping for a sharing to ease a troubled mind
We speak of desires we’ve had
and how our wants align
as more and more our chatter goes
and has our desires refine
leaning toward each other, hearts and lonely minds
Glad, I am, that he freely speaks his mind
in words with compliment, have pleasing refine
as I find myself not willing to turn away
hoping for his spoken words to come this lonely day
me hopeful to hear him Eloquent Words Speaking
Love, yes love, my heart I find is speaking
with him desiring, yet strongly resisting
and unwilling still to turn away from our chatter speaking
more and more the door-crack widens
as more and more his lonely heart I’m spying
*Oh, so Gently*
After weeks of idle chatter
words of life that hardly matter
I found something, I cannot say
but it moved me in many ways
In his eyes, and in his words
I had not found the absurd
instead I found there real made
and changed my life in many ways
He was hurt, would hardly flirt
would only talk of want and hurt
a harder life I had not seen
his time on Earth seems hard and mean
And yet in him there was no stone
his damaged heart could cry and moan
and I believed his troubles could be overthrown
and he not spending life alone
My thought to find a place where he
could see the woman who is me
as more than someone for short time talk
maybe even someone with whom to walk
And I, the only one to see
him, his possibility
a goal for me, to reach
to persuade heart to loving niche
For myself among this future days
if only I could measure my plays
and gently, oh, so gently
by smallest measure, make my reach
To find the man within, hiding
that precious heart, could be abiding
as it wakes within this man
I, to act gently as I can
To find that string, played, to make him sing
to his life bring pleasured scene
and cast out the hurt, the mean
us to start a life calm and clean
Should I have?
There, I said it, should I have?
Blurted out into the world
words I mean but should have furled
kept inside, for all the world
Until he was ready
He is not eager to commit
reluctant ever, is his emit
hesitant whenever we chatting sit
As his return is; “I like you too.
I know you care, but
I have told you where I stand;
I’m a man of integrity,
That’s who I am.”
Him to say, “I’m committed too
my life, my past all day through
not looking for someone new.”
And I to wonder if it true
if saying “I love you” I should do
or have done, poor timing too
I am hopeful, but my heart sinks
his response truly stinks
Could be better timed, I should think
As I wonder, say it, “Should I have?”